Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Bigger Blogging....

I am so excited to see that my friends are also starting to blog......some cool and interesting stuff to chat about and many thoughts to express.....Chate, Warren - go for it.....look forward to reading your stuff!!!!

Monday, October 27, 2008

The Dance and the Rythm of beautiful people.......can you hear it?

Well, today is Monday...... What is it about certain Mondays that make them so blue? I am sitting here at my desk and am struggling so to focus. I am def using a hell of a long runway today - for this week ahead.

You know, I was thinking this morning about judgement - the power of it in the wrong places that seem like the right places!!! Why do we as people sometimes think that we have the power to exercise judgment? Not only ourselves, but on others......are we not to accept and love people? Are we not meant to walk a road of love and encouragement with those around us? Since when has it become our duty to make sure that people are on the right track and living life like they should!

The joys of getting older is that you couldn't care less whether you fit in or not, whether you are being judged or not. Why is it though that we are always expected to fit into something? Be someone for someone or something? Round peg in a square hole. Can we not accept all for who they are.....if you are a square peg, why keep trying to fit into the round hole? Why is there underlying pressure to fit into something that we are not.....Is that pressure a normal part of living or are we just getting involved in areas where we were never meant to get involved. Are we wanting to drive a car that we were never given keys for? Do we really give the credit due where it belongs? Do we really see the quality and strength of people around us? Or do we prefer to play God and think we hold some kind of place of authority in our dealings with people everyday?

What amazes me is that when one stands up and in actual fact takes the stand for what you feel is right for you - then.....invariably, people won't like the shake or change and immediately will respond with suspicion and or distrust......

Do you really live in your rhythm? Are you dancing your dance? Or have you altered it so much that you forgot the sound?

Be who you are.....stand up and be yourself!!! You don't owe anybody owe it to your self. Each person has a rhythm and a dance.......can you hear it?

Step out and be yourself!!!!!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Dreams interpreted.....

The chewing glass thing......well, broken glass apparently means times of change!!!!! Sounds pretty cool to me......if anyone has any further interpretations - feel free to let me know.....intrigued!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Dreams: Scary stuff

I woke up this morning in a semi-cold frightened state.....I had had a dream, which seems a little strange to me. I dreamt that I was chewing on broken glass and was trying my best to get rid of the glass, spitting it out!!!! I was really struggling and woke up with a fright when realising that the glass just seemed to get more and more.....

What kinda dream is that? Madness....who chews on glass? Anyway, having a look in a dream dictionary, perhaps my subconscious is trying to tell me something.......YOU THINK!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


The Journey of self holds no guarantees.... The mirror reflecting the me I see, deep with in, speaks a truth that creates discomfort to self and others. The prediction of wonder seems normal to all, but is it the truth we live.

With barren sight, alone and afraid, there is no hope in this place where I find myself. There is isolation that is so unbearable but yet become normal. To desire transformation from this arid existence is the daily thought with no obvious clear solution in sight! The darkness pulls over your eyes and into your soul and takes a grip too deep, too intense. You fall and cannot stand up again! Each life whipping, hits you harder and deeper until the bruises seem to no longer heal.

The scars are alive, so alive that your words speak only of them. The eyes speak only of the sadness, and hold no sight of the good and the wonder that surrounds. You have no place with in yourself to go, in each corner of my soul there seems to be a dweller! A dweller that has stayed for too long, PAIN!

As a child has a heart to play and learn, so do I have the desire to see that return with in me? I yearn to dance with glee, to scream with excitement, to feel free from grief and pain…. To feel life as a child who discovers it all for the first, the adventure of all that is new and the awe that remains long after!

Written: After the death of my mother in 2001

A Journey.......

Things I have read in the past that I appreciatte about our path to maturity…….we learn:

  • The one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
  • You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
  • You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
  • You'll fight with your best friend.
  • You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
  • You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you will lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

"Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin!"

Heart of Mortal Man

The heart longs for life,
The heart dreams, reaches for dreams!

The heart is afraid!
The heart takes hold!
The heart risks all,

Moving toward that which makes it breath,
Makes it live, makes it more, deeper,
Beyond which the eye can see.

The heart has faith,
Faith to believe all that is unseen.
Faith to keep hoping and longing,
Keep on trying and fighting.

Moving toward that which makes it breath
Makes it live, makes it reach more, deeper,
Beyond which the eye can see.

The heart has fear
The heart has weakness,
The heart fails,
Creating room for growth,
Room for depth and life.
brings imperfection to light,
Creating awareness that it needs more,
More love, more faith and more of God.

The heart has pain,
Pain that breaks
Pain that builds,
Pain that lives,
Pain that dies,
Pain that reaches for the future,
To be all!

The heart cries,
Tears of pain,
Tears of joy,
Tears of fear,
Tears of failure,

Where water flows, growth takes place
Where water flows, life can reside.
Where water flows, love can settle in

Oh heart of mortal man!

Be courageous!
Be strong!
Have faith!

Reach deeper, further,
Be all you can!

Live each day and experience the greatness of God
within the heart of mortal man!